Hurting

 Words can hurt as much as the lack of them. 

I am here sitting in my living room seeing pictures of the whole family having fun together, and yet again, some have excluded me for something that for me was important and make me feel connected. No words were spoken. Just actions. 

I am the one away, so I am the one excluded. 

And I am seeing those pictures and my insides hurt. 

My insides hurt cause I am hurting. 

I am hurting because I have extremely negative feelings for them, because they have pushed me away. 

Nobody cares.

I am, once again, not loved, not wanted, excluded, pushed away.